my life; or whatever u call this hell hole

2008-08-28T14:49:00.003+08:00

1 year, 6 months and 2 weeks.... the time it takes a heart to grow and wither away.

I love you New, but we just cant make the distance.

Take care of yourself, cos i cant be there to do it anymore.

2008-07-02T03:04:00.002+08:00

new left yesterday... and i'd be lying if i told you i didnt cry at all.

im listening to rogue traders- what you're on, and i refuse to succumb! i will commit!
my commitment is to fly to bangkok as many times as possible!

i was lucky the ring i bought New arrived in time before she left... you see, i bought a mood ring for her after we watched 'the happening'. if you dont know what a mood ring is, it is a ring which changes color as your mood changes.

hopefully she wont lose it.... :)

i miss her already, especially her smell.

2008-06-17T01:09:00.002+08:00

ghosts.... spirits....

the hype of 40 devenish street....

bullshit? or real? scientific explaination??

What if.... ghosts, are actually real people, captured in a time fabric? stuck in replay?

im wondering what everyone is going to do after university, where are they gonna go?? myself, im heading to san francisco after army... to the Academy of Arts, for a master in fine arts! if anyone is interested in attending in 2010 fall, please let me know.... they offer graphic design to fashion to movies like pixar animation etc....

just watched "the happening" today.... not too great, but the concept is great none the less, and keeps you thinking.... i like films like that. every civilisation has a fall. Egypt, Mayan civilisations, even Rome. All great empires, long gone.

What if our civilisation is going to fall? what if we dont stop polluting our environment? people always think.... "oh this thing will sort itself out..." "we'll invent spaceships to colonise other planets..."

Technically, yes.... it will sort itself out... the polar caps will melt, cities will flood, millions will die... (sound familiar)? and when enough people has died to reduce pollution, nature sorts itself out. then this will be the fall of OUR globalized civilisation.

2007-11-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

The long deserved holiday..... gone wrong.

lets break it down..... Xing, Kelvin, Brian, Joe, Jo, Tania. NS,NS,NS,NS, Work,Work.
No one left in Perth.
Brother decided to come to perth on dec 14.

I am.... stuck in between.... if i stay in singapore, i will not be able to meet my friends everyday as they have NS or work. and my family isnt there.

If i stay in perth, i wont be able to see my friends at all.... and will miss the singapore food.

what do i do..... being confronted with the most boring holidays ever....

furthermore i might have to do summer school, and NS is looming around the corner.... fucking sucks.... its like im stuck on train tracks and no one can save me..... going head on into the damn train.

basically, to sum it up, I cant meet the friends i wanna meet enough, and i cant spend enough time with my brother. I deserve 3 months of holidays, but i just might get 1. i dont even know if the 3 months one would be nice.... because everyone is too busy....

2007-11-05T14:58:00.001+08:00

You know you're in college when...

1. High school started before 8am, but now anything before noon is considered “early."

2. You have more beer than food in your fridge.

3. Weekends start on Thursday.

4. 6am is when you go to sleep, not when you wake up.

5. You know many different ways to cook ramen noodles or macaroni and cheese.

6. The health center gives out free condoms, and people take them… just in case.

7. Instead of falling asleep in class, you stay in bed.

8. You know how late McDonald’s, Taco Bell, Qdoba, etc. are open.

9. You think it’s the weekend on a Wednesday and you don’t know what month it is.

10. You can't remember the last time you washed your car.

11. Your underwear/sock supply dictates your laundry schedule.

12. You check Facebook/Myspace more than once a day.

13. You get drunk dialed on any night of the week.

14. You wash dishes in the bathroom sink.

15. You’ve fallen off a loft bed.

16. You talk about beer pong like it’s a sport.

17. Finding random people in your house is perfectly normal, and you even sympathize with them... sometimes when you wake up you have no idea where you are.

18. Your primary news sources are the Daily Show and the Colbert Report.

19. You open a beer at 10 am and your roommate asks you if there’s more.

20. The standard of meals per day falls to two, sometimes just one.

21. Your trash is overflowing and your bank account isn’t.

22. You go to Target or WalMart more than 3 times a week.

23. You wear the same jeans for 13 days without washing them.

24. Your breakfast consists of a coke or cereal bar on the way to class... anything with caffeine will do.

25. Quarters are like gold.

26. Your idea of feeding the poor is buying yourself some ramen noodles.

27. You live in a house with three couches, none of which match.

28. You try to study but seem to procrastinate by eating, going to study breaks, talking to people, etc...

29. You talk to your roommate on instant messenger when you’re both home.

30. You ask people what YOU did last night.

31. Certain things are now deemed "facebook worthy." When friends take pictures of you, you wonder how long it will take them to post them.

32. You’ve seen a hit and run involving a bicyclist/pedestrian.

33. You see people you know you’ve met but can never remember their names or how you know them.

34. You sleep more in class than in your room

35. Your idea of a square meal is a box of Pop-Tarts.

36. You've traveled with bags of dirty clothes.

37. You go home to do your laundry because you're too poor to pay the $2... or too lazy to go to a change machine.

38. You pay $100 for a book you don't read once, return it four months later, and get $7.

39. More than 20% of your household furnishings are made from milk crates.

40. You recognize the meat in the dorm soup as yesterday's meatloaf, and thus decide to eat a nice bowl of cereal - a safe bet for any meal.

41. You use words like "thus" (see #40).

42. You throw out bowls and plates because you don't feel like washing them.

43. Your beer pong table is nicer than all your other tables.

44. It takes preparation... and 3 people... to take out your garbage.

45. Going to the library is a social event.

46. You wear flip flops in the shower your freshman year... you know why.

47. You start joining clubs because of the free food.

48. Visits home depend on how much money you have for gas.

49. You skip one class to write a paper for another.

50. You have no idea where your tuition money is going... technology fees? I think not.

51. Bicycles don't seem as lame as they did in high school.

52. You stay up late to finish homework then sleep through the class in which it was due.

53. Girls: You've balanced your foot on a shampoo bottle to shave.

54. Your backpack is giving you scoliosis.

55. You've written a check for 45 cents or stopped to get $2.00 of gas.

56. Your bill in the bookstore will be comparable to tuition.

57. Going to the mailbox becomes an ego booster/breaker.

58. Most of your T.A.s are foreign...what's the deal?

59. You never realized so many people are smarter than you.

60. You never realized so many people are more dumb (aka "dumber") than you.

61. Western Europe could be wiped out by a terrible plague and you'd never know, but you can recite the last episode of your favorite show verbatim.

62. Care packages rank right up there with birthdays.

63. You craft ways to make any game into a drinking/stripping game.

64. You meet the type of people you thought only existed in movies.

65. Printers break down only when you desperately need them.

66. Anything can be cooked in a microwave.

67. Two words: bike cops.

68. You have Safe Ride programmed into your phone.

69. Old school Nintendo... and guitar hero... are pretty much the best things ever.

70. Going to the grocery at midnight is completely normal.

71. You call restaurants that deliver more than you call your own family.

72. You've paid bills over $5... in coins.

73. You can't imagine life without your computer/cell phone/ ipod.

74. Hoodies and sweatpants become the norm - jeans are considered "dressy" at certain occasions... like school.

75. A canceled class is almost as exciting as Christmas.

76. Taking a nap in the library is perfectly acceptable.

77. Your professors speak English... as a second language.

78. Your teachers swear in class and no one cares.

79. Candles in your dorm room are considered contraband, but cigarettes are ok.

80. You take condiment packets and napkins from fast food restaurants - hey, they're free.

81. Betta fish are like your family.

82. You bring back socks from the laundry room that may or may not be yours.

83. You know what people carrying suspiciously heavy backpacks after dark are doing...

84. The elevators take forever but you'll wait 10 minutes just so you don't have to climb stairs.

85. Your roommate asks you to check the weather on your computer when they're standing 5 feet away from the door.

86. Showers become more of an issue.

87. You press the automatic door opener instead of simply grabbing the handle when you approach a door.

88. Christmas lights seem to be acceptable all year round.

89. Class size doubles on exam days.

90. You donate plasma even though you know it's pretty sketchy.

91. You are no longer thankful that fire alarms are here to protect you.

92. You've bought Christmas presents from the book store and charged it to your student account so your parents pay for the gifts because you're too broke.

93. You begin to include ketchup on your list of acceptable vegetables.

94. You stay on campus for hours in between classes when it's too cold to walk home.

95. People have to help you kick the vending machine just so you can get your 50 cent bag of chips.

96. There's always a "question kid" in at least one of your classes, and you really wish someone would just tell him/her to shut the hell up.

97. You steal dishes from the cafeteria so you don't have to wash your own.

98. Laundry is an all-day event.

99. You no longer find it uncool to take naps. In fact, you quite enjoy them.

100. It's illegal to drink in the dorms yet they sell an assortment of shot glasses, beer mugs, tankards, etc. in the bookstore.

101. You find your list of acceptable napping places expanding daily to increasingly uncomfortable locations.

102. You fill out credit card applications for the free food.

103. You've eaten cereal out of a cup... with a fork.

104. Dressing up for Halloween becomes cool again.

105. You know at least one person who has dropped his/her cell phone into a toilet.

106. You hang multiple shirts on the same hanger to save space/money.

107. You become increasingly annoyed with the "old" people in class - props to them for going back to college but they generally ask really, really annoying questions.

108. You admire people's alcohol bottle shrines.

109. You set your clock 5-10 minutes ahead so you can potentially make it to class on time.

110. You eventually realize that setting your clock ahead makes no difference to you and you're still late.

111. You check ratemyprofessor.com (or something of the like) before choosing your class schedule.

112. You text faster than you type.

113. You only find out a class is cancelled after you get there and sit for about ten minutes.

114. You actually start using coupons, especially those school coupon books.

115. You open canned food and eat it... out of the can.

116. You run out of black ink and, instead of buying a new ink cartridge, decide blue is a nice substitute... adds a little flair.

117. You have numbers in your phone with labels like “Sketchy Steve” and “Alcohol Guy.”

118. The food in your fridge may or may not be older than your little brother.

119. The words "google" and "wikipedia" have become verbs. And you use them... quite often.

120. The names Morgan, Jim, Jack, and Jose could aptly describe either who you were with last night or what you had to drink.

121. You fill your empty two-liter bottles with pop from the school cafeteria.

122. You have a drinking buddy who can hold the most intellectual, deep conversations when drunk. Unfortunately, neither he/she nor you can remember most of it later.

123. Your floor has been dirty to the point that you've had to brush your feet off before putting on socks or getting into bed.

124. You're all for the free samples at grocery stores.

125. Energy drinks become your new best friends.

126. You realize that taking summer classes pretty much negates the fun connotation of "summer."

127. You know exactly how much food will fit into a mini-fridge.

128. You realize that said mini-fridge does NOT freeze ice cream.

129. You've made a sandwich on or eaten food off of your $1500 laptop.

130. Your scar stories involve alcohol and/or hearing what happened to you from your more sober friends.

131. It is completely acceptable... and encouraged... to party on weeknights. What would life be without Wasted Wednesdays or Thirsty Thursdays?

132. Most of your textbooks remain unopened (possibly still shrink-wrapped) the entire semester.

133. You finish reading this and wonder how you can procrastinate next.

2007-11-05T13:28:00.001+08:00

Apparently, 1 in 5 people in the world are Chinese. And there are 5 people in my family, so it must be one of them. It's either my mum or my dad. Or my older brother Colin. Or my younger brother Ho-Chan-Chu..... But I think it's Colin

2007-08-27T13:00:00.000+08:00

2007-08-13T22:41:00.000+08:00

Some quotes to ponder on; -Frank Herbert
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Much that was called religion has carried an unconscious attitude of hostility toward life. True religion must teach that life is filled with joys pleasing to the eye of God, that knowledge without action is empty. All men must see that the teaching of religion by rules and rote is largely a hoax. The proper teaching is recognized with ease. You can know it without fail because it awakens within you that sensations which tells you this is something you've always known.

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Think you of the fact that a deaf person cannot hear. Then, what deafness may we not all possess? What senses do we lack that we cannot see and cannot hear another world all around us?

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Governments, if they endure, always tend increasingly toward aristocratic forms. No government in history has been known to evade this pattern. And as the aristocracy develops, government tends more and more to act exclusively in the interests of the ruling class — whether that class be hereditary royalty, oligarchs of financial empires, or entrenched bureaucracy.

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Good government never depends upon laws, but upon the personal qualities of those who govern. The machinery of government is always subordinate to the will of those who administer that machinery. The most important element of government, therefore, is the method of choosing leaders.

- House Harkonnen
Discovery is dangerous… but so is life. A man unwilling to take risk is doomed never to learn, never to grow, never to live.

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Only those with narrow minds fail to see that the definition of impossible is "Lack of imagination and incentive."

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It has often been said that it is better to rule in Hell than serve in Heaven. This is defeatist talk: I intend to rule everywhere, not just in Hell.
The Titan Agamemnon

(i like this one.... it shows lucifer is really a defeatist)

2007-08-11T13:55:00.000+08:00

Finished Image...

2007-08-09T01:28:00.000+08:00

its 1 30am, and i am sitting here modelling an elf.... heres my screenshot!

his name.... is Andul :D took me the whole damn night, but its worth it....

2007-08-05T13:40:00.000+08:00

why do i hate crowds? i always wonder why i hate large crowded places, until i figured out why yesterday.....

maybe its because when you are in a crowded place, it is only crowded because everyone else is there for the same reason as you are, and looking at their expressionless faces makes me remember how insignificant and just like everyone else i am.

2007-06-08T18:08:00.000+08:00

On the 3rd of May 2007, owners of 3 black cars, JDAT SR, JDEC and JAGUAR dispatched a team of crazy fishermen.

The effects of their rampage fishing can be seen below, with their reckless swinging of fishing rods.

2007-06-08T02:01:00.000+08:00

DIDO - Sand in My Shoes (Edited by Dan lol)

Two weeks away (Dec 6 - Dec 20) it feels like the world should've changed
But I'm home now
And things still look the same
I think I'll leave it to tomorrow to unpack
Try to forget for one more night
That I'm back in my flat on the road
Where the cars never stop going through the night (Singapore)
To a life where I can watch sunset (Phi Phi Don beach, with New, Thames & Amanda, with (Pocky, Vitasoy, Yupi Burger, Hello Panda and more)
I don't have time
I don't have time (Rushing to pack to move house and settle Army Paperwork)

[Chorus:]
I've still got sand in my shoes (Honestly, there really was sand in my sandals when i brought them back)
And I can't shake the thought of you
I should get on, forget you
But, why would I want to
I know we said goodbye
Anything else would've been confused but I wanna see you again

Tomorrow's back to work and down to sanity
Should run a bath and then clear up the mess that I made before I left here (Messy Singapore Room)
Try to remind myself that I was happy here (which i really wasn't that happy)
Before I knew that I could get on the plane and fly away (to paradise on Tiger airways, for only $179)
From the road where the cars never stop going through the night
To a life where I can watch sunset
And take my time
Take all our time (Never rushing.... never rushed on Phi Phi)

[Chorus]

I wanna see you again

Two weeks away
all it takes to change and turn me around I'm fallen
I walked away and never said that I wanted to see you again

[Chorus x2]

I wanna see you again
I wanna see you again

2007-06-06T13:55:00.000+08:00

pom yak big ju JUUUUUUB

2007-05-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

2007-05-20T03:35:00.000+08:00

somehow im still stuck on phi phi island..... my feet just long to touch the soft sand and warm water..... wondering if i will ever get to go back there....

its 3 36am and im waiting for my tee ruk to come back and talk to me.... wonder if she has fallen asleep already... im fighting to stay awake here.... cant wait for her to come back

2007-05-08T00:09:00.000+08:00

an update, flooded with happy photos :D

MOS - Chillout Session
remember the essential reservation,
last night's pink dress?
i can still smell you on my fingers,
and taste you on my breath...

2007-04-07T02:19:00.000+08:00

"if you look hard enough, you can always find a chip in your shoulder."

2007-04-04T23:49:00.000+08:00

iPROSHED!!!!!!!!

woot.... with only 2 hours of sleep, thames, new, phil, jerald and myself proceeded with the iProsh plan. reported to uni at 5 30am for our tin and papers..... and then headed to money street, and the journey to the CBD!!!!

quite fun actually, after we started actually getting donations... walkin thru the city getting wierd looks.....
jerald is george bush btw....

2007-04-01T16:32:00.000+08:00

just a shout to bro xing..... really proud of you! on channel 5!!! hehehe
my lil cousin watches ubin boys alot..... one day you gotta meet him xing.... lol.... one of your fans LOL

2007-04-01T15:39:00.000+08:00

I put no stock in religion. By the word religion I have seen the lunacy of fanatics of every denomination be called the will of god. I have seen too much religion in the eyes of too many murderers. Holiness is in right action, and courage on behalf of those who cannot defend themselves, and goodness.

2007-03-29T01:59:00.000+08:00

its funny how, when we make mistakes, we say "i'm only human". but nobody says that when they accomplish something really big.... or like when someone saves a boy from a fire.... he doesnt say "im only human" does he?

"its not how you start the day, its how you end it."

a beautiful day, destroyed.

2007-02-23T15:31:00.000+08:00

hello, finally an update..... summer school is over... which i admit was wayyyy more fun than i imagined, mostly because of the company! thames and new really made summer school a fun thing. at first i thought new wouldnt really go out that much, but hey, i was proven wrong.... wierd thing is that even with jasmain and others back, it always seems to be just us 3!

during the past week since the end of summer school, we have accomplished so much. on thursday night, after our last paper, we all decided to go for a fancy dinner.... all dressed up ... so me, thames and ley were all dressed up in our tuxedos, while new and jasmain wore their very elegant dresses.... which reminds me, i forgot to tell them how great everybody looked....

we then all ate a nice dinner at the oyster bar in south perth.... which was courtesy of thames.... thanks Mi LAW!!!!!!! :D :D and after dinner, we all proceeded to burswood for some gambling and more photos :P

the next day, new, jasmain, thames and i decided to have a BBQ at south perth..... which turned out really really nice due to the great marinating skills of new and thames :P i brought my dad's camera along, and so we managed to take many nice photos....

we then headed to kings park to get more nice photos.... kinda lazy to upload liao cos fucking slow. lol. we then decided to pick up some ice cream and head down to south beach.... made some really cool photos with our handphone lights while leaving the camera shutter open....

on sunday, my dad flew thames, new and i over to rottnest and dropped us there for a fun day of cycling and photo taking lol... was one of the best times ever in rottnest.... might upload photos at another time...

then on tuesday, new, thames and i (the 3 musketeers again) or.... should i say, new, the bear and the moose, took a road trip down to mandurah! for crabbinggg :D :D :D rented an apartment over there and stayed over for a night... caught around 10 crabs, nothing much but still had a nice dinner with em :)

and now im sick.... lol, so i've spent the whole of yesterday at home... what a waste of precious holiday hours....

2007-02-11T15:13:00.000+08:00

people always ask... what is the meaning to life?

i believe that the purpose of life is for each individual to embark on the on-going search from birth till death, the search for and the strive for happiness. Just for that one moment where everything is perfect, where you can say "if i died now, i wouldnt be afraid, it would be ok" because you have accomplished what you wanted to.

"But I just think good things will happen, if you are a good person with a good attitude, don't you think?" - Sofia, vanilla sky

strive on....

love, daniel ;)

2007-02-07T15:10:00.000+08:00

Warning: If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all that claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think every thing you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told to want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you're alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become a statistic. You have been warned

2007-02-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

Bob Sweeney: There was a moment... when I used to blame everything and everyone... for all the pain and suffering and vile things that happened to me, that I saw happen to my people. Used to blame everybody. Blamed white people, blamed society, blamed God. I didn't get no answers 'cause I was asking the wrong questions. You have to ask the right questions.
Derek Vinyard: Like what?
Bob Sweeney: Has anything you've done made your life better?

2007-01-22T03:55:00.000+08:00

i think its safe to say im not alone when i say, sometimes i feel like im doing the wrong course. in fact, i knew it since i got the acceptance letter, or even when i put it as my first choice.

i wanted to pursue a designer's degree, but the school i wanted to go to was in san francisco. when i found out about that school on the net, i ran it by my dad, who took it very seriously, and even took a detour from his business trip to america to check out the school in san francisco. he said he was impressed, but was afraid that i might not be able to make any money with that degree. this is one of the main reasons i respect my dad so much. he supports my dreams. not all the time, but in significant ways.

anyway, i was just up early today, and im thinking..... i can never really wake up to study accounting...... but art....... i could wake up early for that. i could play with art ideas for hours. using designing programs.... awesome fun :)

thats life isnt it, dealing with not getting what you want. sure, it may be great if i was doing it, but no, i am not going to cuss and whine about it.

2006-12-26T02:28:00.000+08:00

im stuck awake thinking of our last night at koh phi phi island.... 4 of us; thames, new, amanda and me at the beach under the stars... just.... perfect. i miss thailand already...

that moment.... vitamilk in hand, staring at the stars which, by the way, are awesomely numerous, while raggae music plays at the pub in the distance... phi phi don bay!

2006-12-24T18:05:00.000+08:00

back from the best trip ever.... to thailand! here are some pics....
maya bay... the place they shot the movie "the beach".

thanks to the 2 very special people at the top, without them, this wouldnt be possible!! Khorp Khoon Karb! Yaang Mun! =)

2006-12-03T15:06:00.000+08:00

2006-11-21T15:16:00.000+08:00

And me, I still believe in paradise. But now at least I know it's not some place you can look for, because it's not where you go. It's how you feel for a moment in your life when you're a part of something, and if you find that moment... it lasts forever...

So never refuse an invitation, never resist the unfamiliar, never fail to be polite and never outstay the welcome. Just keep your mind open and suck-in the experience. And if it hurts, you know what? It's probably worth it.

You only live once. Dont waste it on religious, political nonsense. You've got eternity to praise God, and when you die, politics dont apply anymore.

2006-11-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

2006-11-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

i wanna cut ur chest open and expose your heart when u're under anesthetic and when you come to, i wanna see you scream in horror and watch as i rip your heart out! but i will first poke it and watch you squirm like a little worm. imagine that.

what a sadistic, rotten way to kill another person. lolz

2006-11-04T02:00:00.000+08:00

Luca Gadjus, lady on the right.

2006-11-04T01:25:00.000+08:00

i was watching return to paradise yesterday, starring jaquin phoenix and vince vaughn. its about drug smugglers who get caught, and then jaquin has to be hanged. this all takes place in malaysia.

looking back at the incident of the van tongen, the vietnamese guy who got hanged in singapore for smuggling drugs, and a huge hoo-hah over here, i think he was killed because of how the media publicised his case. too much media hype increases the pressure that singapore has to make him an example to all drug dealers and smugglers. if they let him go, drug dealers will start using aussie citizens as drug mules.

if say, there was no hype, and no one knew about him, and an aussie minister pleaded his case, i think it might have gone successfully?

i guess Australians think the death penalty is "barbaric", but i've lived in both countries, and IMO, the law is there not to punish people, but to prevent people from commiting crimes. a penalty no one wants to pay means less people want to risk it. that is why singapore streets are much safer. in singapore, everywhere i go, i do not have the feeling of insecurity. there are no, or should i say very few "Dodgy" places. In perth, when i walk through northbridge, i see police patrols everywhere, but somehow sometimes i dont feel that safe either.

just a thought! =)

2006-11-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

people are often un reasonable, illogical, and self-centered - forgive them anyway. if you are kind people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives - be kind anyway. if you are successful you will win some false friends and some true enemies - succeed anyway. if you are honest and frank people may cheat you - be honest and frank anyway. what you spend years building someone can destroy overnight - build anyway. if you find serenity and happiness they may be jealous - be happy anyway. the good you do today people will often forget tomorrow - do good anyway. give the world the best you have and it may never be enough - give the world the best youve got anyway. you see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God, it was never between you and them anyway.

2006-11-01T14:46:00.000+08:00

the first scare of the night: Jasmain (successful)
Picked up Lau after attempting to scare him. This is lau scheming to scare chelink
me and main
thames and main
fat bitch. LOL jkjk thames :P

Happy Halloween!

2006-10-27T16:53:00.000+08:00

my walter p99 and glock 18c

2006-10-27T15:15:00.000+08:00

There are 7 deadly sins

Pride is excessive belief in one's own abilities,Pride is also known as Vanity.

Envy is the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.

Gluttony is an inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires.

Lust is an inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.

Anger is manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath.

Greed is the desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual. It is also called Avarice or Covetousness.

Sloth is the avoidance of physical or spiritual work.

of the 7, Anger is the worst of all..... because, the other 6, only damage yourself, or maybe a limited number more... but anger.... when it pushes you off the edge of the cliff, you drag every one else with you.

it only takes one angry man with a gun to destroy a hundred people's lives.

you say you're not afraid to die... well i'm scared.

2006-10-21T15:18:00.000+08:00

this is it. it all boils down to 4 - 3 hour papers. they are just tests of what i have learnt so far. all i need to do is go through my tutorials and i am in the safe zone. these are the all or nothing days. study or fail. the harder i work, the sweeter it will be when it is over, and the less guilt i will have on my mind during the holidays. i can do this. WE can do this.... to all those having their exams, in perth or A lvls in spore, buckle up, get ready to take watever they throw at you. we have made it this far, we are not stupid.

and then again..... who am i trying to convince? you? or me? ;)

take it one day at a time, one step at a time.

somehow, i am not that stressed this time.

2006-10-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

2006-10-11T17:37:00.000+08:00

i used to think i was unlucky to come to perth.... but recently, it dawned on me, that not many people get to experience university like us.... for example, slacking in the sun in between classes, hitching rides with friends, bringing my dog for a spin in thames car~~ hahaha, going to the beach at night to eat ice cream in the dark, with only the moon as light... late night visits to the casino....

i mean, in singapore, how many people have a car? or even live alone??
here, friends mostly live alone. crashing at their houses..... so fun!

un-adult moderated house parties.... unlimited cheap alcohol. cocktail partays~~ weed sessions~
near impossible in singapore....

this place is growing in me =)

anyway, i got funding from parents to visit thames in phuket in december! with amanda as well.... too bad jasmain cant go! lol.... gonna be so fun!!! cant wait cant wait!!! white sandy beaches with blue transparent water!!!!

2006-10-08T03:10:00.000+08:00

asia cocktail night...... jasmain, amanda, jy and me... what a shame thames didnt go =(

2006-09-22T15:49:00.000+08:00

holidays have passed so quickly... was a fun and eventful week with themz, amanda, raymond, JY and others...

went shooting with raymond and themz....
.22 caliber
and the glock 9mm
and finally the highlight of the day, .357 magnum. same one in half life 2... equivalent to desert eagle
with a huge recoil and fire from the chamber...
just take a look at this .357 round. its like a piece of chalk lolz.

mr themz demonstrating the Phuket way of shooting ;p

other highlights of the week: overnight fishing with Themz and amanda on monday, and another overnight fishing at freo with themz, amanda, jasmain and JY.

confronted by a wierdly kind man (kinda dodgy), our paranoia got the better of us and we left early...

school has begun, and safuan is in perth.... i am still lacking sleep...

2006-08-18T03:43:00.000+08:00

in what seemed like a lifetime ago...

2006-08-13T16:03:00.000+08:00

i miss singapore.... when i go back, im gonna go to the country club for a swim on a weekday.... so its completely empty.... with the bros.... i remember start of this year we were there..... just slacking and chilling.... eating curry puffs then swimming and eating more..... its awesome la.... warm water, cool wind... peace and quiet..... i just wanna go there now....

missing all the people in spore.... sigh.... xing, brian, joe, faster confirm if u guys coming over.... or else i will book tix on dec 1.... wanna get outta here liao.... at least if u come we can hit adventure world, go down south for a couple of days..... hit the beaches... maybe surf? or tap sum bong... watever....

2006-08-06T17:43:00.000+08:00

list of stupidest things said to me...

1. "do u know what it is to be goth?" "yah.... its when hor, people dress like gal but not gal."
2. "Whats that?" "oh its cruise control" "what does it do?" "it automatically keeps my speed at that limit." "orh! u mean u can on it then go to sleep ah?"
3. "techno, trance... all same thing la"

theres more.... way more, but i just know that if i post it, some will kick up a huge fuss lol.... its all in the name of fun.

2006-07-29T02:45:00.000+08:00

update.... first week of uni... pretty miserable... 2 9am classes. braving the rain and cold to attend lectures. but this sem should be better.... got a timetable that has breaks which are similar to thames and amanda. also doing same law unit as thames. met my boss's son during stats lecture lol.... turns out he's doing stats as well....

bro brought over xbox, along with his girlfriend ehehhee. they bought me a WACOM graphics tablet... thanks guys =) now i need to format my comp.... havent been doing any art recently.... WoWing too much with eric and bro lol...

watched you,me and dupree with thames and amanda, my bro and his gf on thurs nght.... pretty funny movie.... but bro thought it was lame lol.... i found it ok.... just a tad exaggerated though...

anyway sorry lisa mei i saw ur msg on msn, u said u stuck? what u mean?? anyways, just PM me when u online lo.... and amanda leow, i finally update =p

going to fremantle or maybe harbour town tomorrow to shop with bro and his gf... today we all went up north.... sight seeing and some cave tour.... i need thicker clothing..... winter's frost has finally arrived.

2006-07-01T03:15:00.001+08:00

mummy eda haha

2006-07-01T03:15:00.000+08:00

next morning

2006-07-01T03:14:00.000+08:00

bong broken, so this had to do LOL

2006-07-01T03:12:00.000+08:00

J rolling the shizzam!

2006-07-01T03:11:00.000+08:00

pochi

2006-07-01T03:10:00.000+08:00

beer, weed, kfc, GO!

2006-06-29T03:39:00.000+08:00

i was listening to this old song, and it reminded me of shi min.... on sunday, the pastor was talking about this girl who had asked him to pray for her.... that she was going thru a hard time.... but just the week later, she was found dead in her bedroom.... she had overdosed... you could see it in the pastor's eyes... the guilt.... as if he could have done someting to help her.... that would change the outcome.... i thought to myself.... he could have saved her! but then i remembered shi min.... just because you know someone, doesnt mean you can save them from themselves. you cant help those who dont want to be helped... i pray shi min is in a better place...

been frustrated lately.... with the launch of the site, and some other issues.... boy, some friends sure leave you high and dry when u need them.... it figures i guess.... you cant rely on other people all the time.... there are so many paths you got to walk alone. i guess its best to do everything and plan everything as if u were going to do them yourself.

i wish i could take out the apathy in me, to be ruthless... to live by "the end justifies the mean" clause.

i wish i was in singapore too...... slowly but surely, everyone's leaving.... as babu put it.... "its getting lonely out here"...

2006-06-12T04:01:00.000+08:00

Woot
been studying and updating my sites.... forums....

http://perthaznfm.sakuraone.com

or http://paf.sakuraone.com

visit us there!!

got a new dj today... DJ J..... he's a professional..... playing psychadellic music now.... really, really good..... u guys should tune in sometime for his show =D

2006-05-28T01:37:00.000+08:00

soo zhen, me and eda

2006-05-28T01:36:00.000+08:00

Karan drunk and on top of his car

2006-05-28T01:29:00.000+08:00

bbq night....

2006-05-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

i got to be the featured artist for digital eloquence on deviant art! =)

happy stuff....

i was thinking about what my creative director said when i was working in spore.... he said "dont ever put 2 pieces of art side by side, you cant compare different pieces of art."

why? you lose the appreciation for each piece when you compare it.

humans are, in so many ways, like art. we shouldnt compare people.... like how parents compare their kids? ridiculous. appreciate them for what they are...

watched da vinci code today.... then snuck into x men 3 lol.... was supposed to watch da vinci code with melvin and cia and the rest, but i decided not too cos.... im gonna be damn busy in the upcoming weeks, and i also aint sure if cia wants to watch it..... so i figured i might as well watch it with sam and soo zhen.... incase the whole thing tuo until the movie is no more showing.... like how it happend with "troy" and "lotr'.....

anw, good luck for the end sem exams, and brace yourselves for the holidays!!!!! PARTY!!! ALCOHOL!!!!!!! WEED!!!!!!! HAAHA cant wait

2006-05-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

"be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind dont matter and those who matter dont mind" - dr seuss

lol, i always had this point in my head, but i could never put it in a good way, until i found this quote....

why bother what people think? if they are insignificant? somebody can talk thrash about you, and then you get hurt.... why get hurt from words some idiot said? if he isnt anybody, his words aint worth shit lol.....

like the african american man in herald and kumar, he said something about why get so riled up about something a bunch of assholes do? the universe tends to unfold as it should....

2006-05-22T13:36:00.000+08:00

instead of the 'dog ate my work' excuse, heres another....

dear mrs crandolph,

regarding the information tech essay, i regret to inform you that last night, before the dateline which is today, my group member tore up the assignment to roll joints of weed. therefore i am pleading for an extention, for his sake, for i swear i will kill him with my bear hands if this extention appeal is declined.

hahahha

2006-05-14T20:12:00.000+08:00

tired...

had an eventful day yesterday.... went to coogee beach with bro and hairul....

water was fuckin freezing btw.... jumped in and swam to the pontoon, and lay there for abit, until i got sea sick..... so we jumped back into the water and swam back.... halfway my hands froze lol, luckily i could stand up.... i was so fatigued plus sea sick from the swim back that i chucked in the bushes hahaha, funny shit.....

sent hairul to his uncles house, then headed down to babu's house for the bbq... at first i didnt know a soul there lol, but as the night progressed, and more alcohol flowed, it got pretty interesting.... from ppl climbing up their cars, to smokin pot and watching liverpool v westham (which was bullshit)...

pretty interesting mix of people..... people from dubai, kuwait and even france.... mostly babu's friends.... the guy from france is interesting, he's working for louis vuitton and came here to study and practice english

anyway, thanks babu for the invite..... treat u lunch or dinner sometime... off to do my corporate acct tute work.... jebus...

2006-04-29T03:34:00.000+08:00

people always ask, "what is the meaning of life? what is our purpose?"

honestly, do we really wanna know?

if we knew, and we fulfilled our purpose, what then? what do we do after we fulfill our purpose?

you give a program, or a machine a code/job, it does it, then stops. after it has fulfilled its purpose, it is useless.

i think life is a journey where we find our purpose, instead of knowing it all along; and our purpose is constantly changing....

they say retirement is the number 1 killer of old people, cause people who have a job tend to live longer, as they have a job to do.

i like to think God put us all here to discover ourselves, not so that he can judge us, but that we can judge ourselves.

2006-04-27T20:01:00.000+08:00

"I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has endowed us with sense, reason, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use." - Galileo Galilei

2006-04-27T02:54:00.000+08:00

the side effects of alcohol are slowly showing..... i now have this pproblem, which i nver had previously, whereby when semiconscious, i act conscious, able to talk and all, but can never remember what happened. like seriously, its like a blank spot on my memory. not even a hint of recollection. in spore, xing called me in the morning, and i picked up, told him i was meeting him at 4pm etc.... when he called at 3pm, i totally had no fucking clue, i thought my brother played a prank on me. funny thing is, i still cant remember if or what i said. then afew days ago, dad woke me up to tell me breakfast was in the oven. i was like yeah ok, i'll eat it later. but he came home at night, was like WTF is this still doing in the fucking oven? im like huh? u didnt tell me it was there.... lol. man.... funny shit..... but i love it when i drink so much i cant really remember what happened the previous night.... its like waking up, not sure what to expect.... maybe one day i'll wake up with a hot chick in bed, and a tattoo on my ass. cant be too surprised lol

2006-04-26T09:14:00.000+08:00

FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
REAL FRIENDS: are the reason you have no food.

FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr/Mrs
REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM

FRIENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
REAL FRIENDS: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"

FRIENDS:never seen you cry.
REAL FRIENDS: cry with you

FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
REAL FRIENDS: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.

FRIENDS: know a few things about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.

FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.

FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
REAL FRIENDS:Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"

FRIENDS: Are for awhile.
REAL FRIENDS: Are for life.

FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.
REAL FRIENDS:Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste."

FRIENDS: will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Will knock them the fuck out

FRIENDS: help you up when you fall down
REAL FRIENDS: laugh at you and push you back down

kinda true in a way lol

2006-04-14T00:43:00.000+08:00

been hell of a week.... tired as hell... exam, essay due, and rushing to and fro to charles gardner hospital.... sorry guys if i havent been meeting or contacting u much.... sorry havent given mel a lift to skool on thursday, or called mark at skool....

cant sleeep, worryin too much...

on the other note.... theres a blue porsche 911 carrera in my garage, for real.... but its an old model... 1980s, vintage! dads friend switched cars with us for afew days.... so one more thing to cross of my list of thigns to do before i die, "sit in a porsche".... haha

happy good friday and easter guys

2006-04-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

finally got my copy of the fotos from sending joseph off.... knn tuo so long, tell me want to send me in jan.... tuo till now... xD

anyway, i still remember that night .... hell hilarious.... after clubbing, me and xing headed home, but hudson and joseph went to devils bar..... some fight happen, so we went to fetch hudson....
after one whole night of chiong, no sleep, still drive joseph to airport. but by then he was already hell intoxicated.... puking white foam lol... he was like.... "hudson, drive on lane 1 ok.... cos i wanna puke already" hudson ; "ok!"

5 minutes later....
"why are u going so fast? i said go slowly cos i wanna puke..."
hudson: "thats lane 4 la!"

haha.... clowns....

i miss singapore already nia.... MoS, all my friends.... my bro, my house, my singapore bed...
cant wait to try out the new car in spore!! got a nissan murano.... with a GPS! woot! next time wont get lost, like on christmas, where we spent 2 hours driving around CBD in the rain...

well, i guess studying isnt as hard as working.... or as tiring.... but then the good thing about work is that once its 6pm, its fuking your own time to do watever the fuck you want. no such thing as homework, or assignments, or essays.... lol. but it does make u hell tired.... i remember working the whole week, then clubbing on friday, but i was so tired i just kept thinking of sleeping. sigh, i wanna go back already.

2006-04-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

hudson wheeling the princess LOL!

2006-04-06T22:15:00.001+08:00

2006-04-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

at the airport kopitiam

2006-04-06T22:14:00.001+08:00

watching joseph puke white bubbles (dunno wat that is)

2006-04-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

chao ah beng

2006-04-06T22:13:00.000+08:00

our famous brother pose

2006-04-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

disturbing the drunk mofo at T2

2006-04-06T22:11:00.000+08:00

lol, joseph puking at airport

2006-04-04T19:57:00.000+08:00

i remember the time when i was not troubled.
what happens when life deals you a lousy hand?

hold your head up high and fake it.

2006-04-02T17:17:00.000+08:00

Ferrari

2006-03-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

some fotos of MOS of i found

Told u u looked drunk manduh

2006-03-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

"Culture replaces authentic feeling with words. As an example of this, imagine an infant lying in its cradle, and the window is open, and into the room comes something, marvelous, mysterious, glittering, shedding light of many colors, movement, sound, a tranformative hierophany of integrated perception and the child is enthralled - and then the mother comes into the room and she says to the child, 'that's a bird, baby, that's a bird,' instantly the complex wave of the angel peacock irridescent transformative mystery is collapsed, into the word. All mystery is gone, the child learns this is a bird, this is a bird, and by the time we're five or six years old all the mystery of reality has been carefully tiled over with words. This is a bird, this is a house, this is the sky, and we seal ourselves in within a linguistic shell of disempowered perception."

- Terence McKenna

leland "love is not in the heart, its on the tongue; its a word"

pearl "no, its in the head too, like when you think about the person alot.... do you ever think of becky?"

leland " i think about her all the time"

small word for a big thing

2006-03-29T02:57:00.000+08:00

'i love you.what else can i say? nothing i say is gonna change anything, cause you love someone else."

your heart cant break if you dont let the world touch it

2006-03-25T21:46:00.000+08:00

i just realised how much i miss singapore.... the M track by ayumi hamasaki cyber trance remix really brings back memories of christmas eve and christmas.... listening to that track while gliding along the PIE at 6 am in the morning, headed towards sempang bedok, with 12 bottles of alcohol in the back, and 1 very intoxicated girl named phyllis asleep on the pillow.

it also reminds me of rides in hudson's camry, which was where i first heard of that song anyway... remember that night after Momo and MoS, met him and ken chiang.... he drove me home after that.... and that trance interval in the track just blew me away, so i d/l it and burnt it and put it in my merc... lol

its just so weird to pick up the pieces of this student life.... after working and partying and all the other stuff... mid sems in a month.... fucking hectic...

well, an update... life is pretty shit right now.... for the past few days i've been sleeping, but waking up exhausted, and been feeling really thirsty even tho i drink alot of water.... until last night.... i popped a kilkenny beer and after a sip, it fucking hit a spot, so i chugged the damn can and i felt as good as ever.... apart from that, im trying to catch up on my studies....

thinking of hitting the beach next weekend....

2006-03-22T01:08:00.000+08:00

its not about the money. it never was about the money. it was about how we did our best to help you when you needed it, and its sad that u cant even return that favor. i begged for you, i lowered myself to help you out. joe forked up what he had, for you, just to get you out of the shit hole u dug for yourself cos you wanted to ride on other people. im not angry, just frustrated and damn disappointed. never mix large amounts of money with friendship, it never works out that well. cant expect much, i bet joe is fucking pissed. a kind soul taken advantaged of. sure, nice guys finish last. yeah, i bet we do. but this did teach me something. everything is superficial. you shouldnt have done what you did, you just needed to explain yourself. we're all friends, its not like we wouldnt understand...

2006-03-10T14:24:00.000+08:00

I think there are two ways you can see the world. You either see the sadness that's behind everything or you choose to keep it all out. It covers my eyes. It's all I can see. Say there's some kids playing baseball. All I see is the one kid they won't let play because he tells corny jokes. And no-one thinks they're funny. Or I see a boy and a girl in love and kissing, you know. I just see that they're gonna be one of those sad old couples one day who just cheats on each other and can't even look at each other in the eye. And I feel it. I feel all of their sadness. I feel it probably even worse than that sad old couple or that corny kid will ever feel it. Its everywhere. Their eyes, reflective, but still containing sadness. Its the same everywhere, just with different faces.

'Its all part of the trade off man. I mean, Love is only such a great thing because you know what it feels like to get your heart broken. What it feels like to be alone. '

Maybe it makes sense now. Maybe somewhere in all of this there's a reason. Maybe somewhere in all of this there's a why. Maybe somewhere there's that thing that lets you tie it all up with a neat bow and bury it in the backyard. But nothing, not getting angry, not prayers, and not tears, nothing can make something that happened unhappen.

And that's when I figured out that tears couldn't make somebody who was dead alive again. There's another thing to learn about tears, they can't make somebody who doesn't love you any more love you again. It's the same with prayers. I wonder how much of their lives people waste crying and praying to God. If you ask me, the devil makes more sense than God does. I can at least see why people would want him around. It's good to have somebody to blame for the bad stuff they do. Maybe God's there because people get scared of all the bad stuff they do. They figure that God and the Devil are always playing this game of tug-of-war game with them. And they never know which side they're gonna wind up on. I guess that tug-of-war idea explains how sometimes, even when people try to do something good, it still turns out bad. Maybe we don't have God because we're scared of the bad stuff. Maybe we're really scared of the good stuff. Because if there's no God, well, that means it's inside of us and we could be good all the time if we wanted. So when we do bad things, it'd be because we want to or because we have to. Or maybe we just need the bad stuff to remind us what the good stuff is in the first place.

'You have to believe that life is more than the sum of its parts'

"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And, you learn that love doesn't mean leaning. And, company doesn't always mean security. And, you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts, and presents aren't promises. And, you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead. With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. And, you learn to build all your roads on today. Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans, and future has a way of falling apart in mid-flight. After a while, you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And, you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and you really do have worth. and you learn, with every goodbye you learn..."

the united states of leland

2006-03-05T11:23:00.000+08:00

i found our pic from dimia security surveillance cameras

2006-03-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

just created a deviant art acct... so check it out at http://chuaster.deviantart.com

2006-03-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

for tania!

2006-03-03T13:40:00.000+08:00

DIMIA

2006-03-01T16:02:00.000+08:00

hudson and lisa have left perth.... its sad, and coupled with school starting, its depressing. im just glad joseph's appeal went through.... so i wont be all left alone on this rock...

some photos from the weekend ktv trip....

"is that Hahn Premium Light?" "errrrr"

my sister.... lol.... ya right.... lisa too good looking to be blood related!

eric tries to kiss eda... along with everyone else...

the gang...

thats all for now.... its back to normal life for all of us now... best of luck with that!

2006-02-26T12:45:00.000+08:00

been hell of a weekend... went to harbourtown on tues, south beach on wednesday, adventure world and kbox yesterday... sunburnt, but it was worth it! beach was hell fun, along with lunch at fremantle...

brothers...

family...

adventure world yesterday was totally not what i expected.... from the looks of it outside, i thought it would be lame... cos the rides looked so... lame? but it was totally awesome, the water rides.... there was this one racing slide when u go down hell fast.... man, my heart was in my mouth... sliding at such high speed.... we took the tube slide too.... and sam, joe, soo zhen and i tried to form a tube train, but it buckld and i flipped, then got water in my nose... then i tried to get back on, and sam uppercut my tube and down i went again....got cut on my shoulder...

kbox was fun too.... singing songs like emil chows peng you... and jay chou & guang liang songs.... fun stuff... oh well, hols are over, but they were the most fun ever.... fuckin uni.... 4 months went by like a snap

2006-02-22T01:56:00.000+08:00

randomest candid of the month

2006-02-22T01:38:00.000+08:00

a song to describe today - incubus - i wish you were here

'the sky resembles a backlit canopy, with holes much in it'

stars tonight were hell bright.... fished at fremantle north mole; under the stars, from 7 till 11 30pm... caught like 12 fish... with hudson, lisa, joe, sam, soozhen and my dad....

sent them home after.... got home, played catching with rusty in the moonlight... whole neighbourhood was dark so the stars were really bright too.... cool summer breeze... a little piece of heaven; so peaceful in the moonlight. in a sense, this is back to the 'normal' life.... the slow lane called perth. im glad to have caught this break... wouldnt have missed it for the world.

adventure world tomorrow... gotta wake up early.... or lisa will say i dua them again and "boooooo" lol! XD haiyo princess

2006-02-19T04:46:00.000+08:00

Ended up at Ruby room at burswood....
got urselves some burbon coke first, then some illusions cos the guys won abit from the baccarat and stuff....
so we went to the dance floor for abit, then left to eat... at fast eddys!
then sped home...

2006-02-18T20:59:00.000+08:00

farkkkkkkkk

2006-02-18T20:56:00.001+08:00

die biatch!

2006-02-18T20:56:00.000+08:00

you stab me, i stab u!

2006-02-16T21:22:00.000+08:00

the crowd goes wild

2006-02-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

KIERAN!!

2006-02-16T21:20:00.000+08:00

joe hudson lisa